Apprehensive

Well now that it's finally settled in this big head of mine that I am "with child" now it's time to face the music, and look ahead at how am I gonna bring this baby into this world. And that is SCARY!!!! I was looking into what hospital Poppa and I will choose to have out little bundle of joy, and I looked at their childbirth classes, breastfeeding classes, and parenting classes (AKA Manual on what to do when you get the little bambino home). As I was looking on their website I printed out a 17 page handout on how to care for mommy and baby when you get them home, and it is SCARY!!!! So I get a little apprehensive thinking about it, but then I stop thinking of myself or my fears, and start thinking of the beautiful result of this horrific process and I can take a sigh of relief because it will all be worth it in the end. I've taken the advice of my fellow mommy Thamar, and I hope that on the big day I will be strong enough to have this baby without drugs! I want to be fully alert when this is happening and not drowsy or sedated.
Im really excited to get a first hand look at the labor and delivery section of the two hospitals we're looking at and attending all the classes I can take (because Im a nerd). I just want to be as prepared as I can for our beautiful baby. =)

Bummer...

Well hubby and I were very excited this Friday because we went to our doctor visit that was going to determine the rest of our lives! Yup this doctor was going to check what was in Mommy's belly and tell us if there was a baby BOY or a baby GIRL.....So hubby meets me at the doctor's office in Northridge and we're there bright and early since it's my first visit at this new doctor now that Im under hubby's medical insurance, and we're in our new neighborhood, so I have to fill out a ton of paperwork. The nurse takes Mommy and Daddy into the room and takes Mommy's weight (by the way, that number shall go with mommy and daddy to the grave! =/) Then we meet our doctor and she seems nice. She starts to say that she has not gotten Mommy's prenatal records from her prior doctor which bothers Mommy since she called Medical Records herself to ensure that the doc had her information when she got there, but I guess someone dropped the ball..no biggie right...Well then doc says that Mommy will have to "schedule" an appointment for her ultrasound and thats when Mommy's smile turns upside down. There must be some mistake, today Mommy is 18 weeks and her prior doctor said that mommies had an ultrasound at 18 weeks, well this doc says she doesnt do the ultrasounds and Mommy needs to make an appointment downstairs with the x-ray people. So everything just goes downhill from there. This whole time Mommy and Daddy were nervous wrecks, excited, happy and this doc just bursted our bubble! Mommy even drank OJ like auntie Mayra told her to so baby wouldnt be shy and show us his or her pee-pee, and Mommy drank tons of water like Gracie advised Poppa, and all for nothing =( Well then the doc tells Mommy she will check baby's hearbeat I guess to make it worth our time, and it was beautiful, we heard baby's heart, and she pointed out that baby was REALLY moving! So that was nice, of course, but we were still very dissapointed not only because we wanted to find out, but because Mommy's only had ONE ultrasound this whole time and on baby's first picture he/she still looks like a little sweatpee, so Mommy really wanted to see baby's precious little arms, and legs, and his big head he got from Poppa, but alas, we will have to wait til we get the darn ultrasound, which of course the soonest they had was an eternity away...February 13th...well at least that will be our gift from our bundle of love =) That's the scoop...Thank you to all our friends that were excited with us to find out, but we will be informing the whole world as soon as we find out!

Self

You know what I was thinking to my self today...I am just SO lucky, and so blessed, and so grateful to have such a wonderful man as my husband, and to be having a baby with him, is AMAZING! It makes me SO happy to see him so excited and doing so much for our little baby and the baby's not even here yet. Poppa gave baby it's first gift, the gift of learning because Poppa reads to baby and plays Mozart for the baby, and talks to the baby. Says goodmorning and goodnight. It is the most beautiful thing in the world to me! AND Poppa just wants to make Mommy and Baby happy so he's making our home with us in mind in EVERYTHING he does, including wanting to paint the baby's room himself once we know if it will be pink...or blue =) Gosh I really dont have the words to describe the excitement and how anxious I am to actually see Poppa in action once that baby comes out of Mommy's belly, and to see our beautiful little clone of Mommy and Poppa for the first time, that will be the best day ever, followed by the day me and my hubby met, and the day we said our I Do's, if it wasnt for that fateful day in Vegas none of this would have ever happened. Who would have known that we'd be here now, happily married, with our beautiful new home, and with the most precious gift of all in my belly. I am just SO SO grateful.

Fellow Mother-to-be

Yesterday my friend and fellow mother-to-be Faby, went in for a 3D ultrasound and found out she's having a baby BOY@!!! Wow, that is so EXCITING! My hubby coulda bet money on that cause that's what he said, he said Faby's having a boy, and we're having a girl, so we will find out if he's two for two next Friday ; ) Last night I dreamt I was playing with a baby boy and hubby said maybe it was Faby's, ha! Last week I dreamt I was taking care of a baby girl, so I guess even in my dreams Im so confused and just cant wait to find out what our first born is going to be! I always thought I was having a boy, just because I said I wanted the first born to be the older brother, and because I thought my hubby would enjoy a boy, but then when I thought about having a girl, well I just get SUPER DUPER excited because she's going to be our adorable, beautiful, talented, little princess, with everything pink, and everything PRINCESS!!! AAAHHH!!! So as you can see I will be extremely happy, grateful and excited about our little bundle of joy regardless of the gender.

Newbie...

I dont know how to work this! Im getting a little frustrated with this gizmo gadget, even though I was very excited to start typing away about our little bundle of joy that's growing in mommy's belly. I wish I would have started this sooner because I started a journal and it had great anecdotes that Im sure you all would have enjoyed.
Well just to keep everyone posted little mommy to be has a doctor appointment next Friday the 23rd, and hubby and I are very excited to find out (if baby is in the mood) what he or she is packing....so that we can start narrowing down names, shopping, decoration but most of all KNOW if we will be having oodles of fun with our baby boy or girl?????? Until then it will remain a mystery, but a beautiful one because either way we are super excited about our little clone of Poppa. ; )